There are a few nice things that I have, that I've been avoiding using, because they are nice and I didn't want to get them dirty or break them. But recently I've been thinking, what's the purpose of having them, and not enjoying them by using them? If they break, they break, or get damaged or worn, but at least I will have enjoyed them. A bag I got during our honeymoon in Japan. A hand blown drinking glass from a friend for a wedding present. A nice big cordless fan. I'm using them now, and it makes me happy, thinking about the love put into them (for the first two) or just makes me nice and cool while trying to keep the AC not working so hard. My friend shared an interesting quote with me, that makes me think about this, that she's been really strongly resonating with, and I agree is poetic and deep:
“You see this goblet?” asks Achaan Chaa, the Thai meditation master. “For me this glass is already broken. I enjoy it; I drink out of it. It holds my water admirably, sometimes even reflecting the sun in beautiful patterns. If I should tap it, it has a lovely ring to it. But when I put this glass on the shelf and the wind knocks it over or my elbow brushes it off the table and it falls to the ground and shatters, I say, ‘Of course.’ When I understand that the glass is already broken, every moment with it is precious.”
I've also been working, for a while now, on making good use of my time, and I feel like I am actually getting better at that, which is exciting and satisfying. One of the simplest things is just looking at my list of things to do, when I've got some free time, and working on them, rather than just getting distracted, doing whatever's in front of me, or watching something.
Finally, I continue to be so grateful for the opportunity to work as a therapist. I love my work and it feels like an honor and a privilege to get to be in that position, as my job. It uses my curiosity, compassion, patience, creativity, and passion for growth in a way that is a really good fit. I'm pretty neutral on the paperwork, and when it starts to take a long time, that's a bit of a negative, but I will do it if it means I get to do the actual therapy stuff, as my job. I hope I never take for granted the honor it is, to help people on their healing path, and never grow complacent.
I'll end this one here for now, maybe I'll do another one this weekend.
All the best,
-I
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