Greatful for rest

I don't have much time or energy but it's getting late in the week and I want to post something, even if it's just short.

This is one of the keys to habit formation (and perhaps maintenance): set the perimeters of your habit to levels you can achieve even when you're at your least motivated. consistency is much more important than intensity. Do 5 minutes every day and you'll form a habit. Insist it's all or nothing, 2 hours or failure, and you are almost certain to fail.

There are other factors, like what kind of motivational angle you take, but I'm tired, so not tonight.

To sum up: two more days before winter break. I am super excited to rest deeply, spend some time with friends, and then work like a dog to finish up all the accumulated Montessori training homework that's gonna be coming due by the end of the year. I'll be working and exhausted like this for the rest of the year, even my spring break will be taken up with classroom observations, so this is kind of my only hope.

I'm so tired. it's about 7:30 and I could fall asleep right now. I'm going to brush my teeth right after this. I was thinking about doing something fun like playing some video games for a few minutes, but I'm just so tired nothing sounds as fun as simply sleeping.

I can't remember what movie this is from, but there was this car chase or race, and the car was being smashed and blown up and falling apart, until it finally scraped to a stop, no wheels even anymore, at it's final destination, just to have the few remaining pieces fall apart around the driver, who was left with nothing but the steering wheel. That seems like an apt description. I wish I could just take a month an a half off, to rest and relax and get all the extra stuff done that's built up, but I won't be able to do that for two to three years, since my summers will be completely consumed with Montessori training.

I... have mixed feelings about that. But I'm just putting my head down and bulling through it, for now. At some point the intensity is going to have to ease up or I'll wear myself down. It's not sustainable. But hopefully as I get more experience and at least once my training ends that will change.

Good night, enjoy your rest. One of my close friends who has trouble falling asleep has reminded me to be grateful for the ability to rest, to fall asleep in a reasonable period of time. We take those kind of things for granted, and only think to be grateful for them when they're gone, but how much more satisfying to be grateful while you actually have them.

Love, gratitude, bye for now,
-I