I have two posts to write (last week and this week)n and some other correspondence, so these may be more short posts.
I'm considering switching platforms to something where comments actually are functional. currently it seems they don't work.
A lot has happened. I went to something called a "Global Unity Gathering" and met Sai Maa, an enlightened master, and devotee of Sai Baba, someone I feel a lot of connection to and respect for. She was fascinating. A great sense of humor, very down to earth and practical, and yet also very esoteric. There was a tremendous transformative energy around her and all she did, as well as the familiar reality and probability warping magical field I've felt around other great saints and holy places and just in general around places and people of power. And there was something about her that was totally indescribable. More than indescribably, beyond understanding. Some.... something, that I couldn't pin down. I've read and heard that it's futile to try and understand enlightened people, when you're not enlightened yourself. Perhaps this was part of the mystery that was being talked about. She was very much a person, she had an extremely strong and specific personality. Perhaps more of a personality than most people have. Like she was painted with brighter colors. At the same time, there was something...colorless. Something beyond the human personality, like the pivot around which the wheel of creation turns.
It gave me a sense of relief. I'd always worried that enlightenment meant you were just a non-responsible bliss lump, without any personality or fun to be had. But this person was clearly having tons of fun, and their personality wasn't erased in the slightest. It was if anything more clearly expressed. And yet there was also very clearly that...something...that was not personality, was not moved. It was kind of like a paradox: how can you have a personality and also be enlightened, beyond personality. It doesn't make logical sense. But you can see someone living it, and that experience provides the answer, where pure logic and reason cannot.
Like ... I think it was Einstein?... saying 'a problem is never solved from the same level of thinking that created the problem.
And, it is clear from how she talks and behaves, that enlightenment is not some kind of boring end of everything. You can continue to learn things, grow, help people. It's very much a relief. I don't know why she happened to be the one who demonstrated these things for me, I think that has more to do with me than her. I've interacted with some other people who I think are enlightened, but she specifically had been given the thumbs up by Sai Baba, who I particularly trust, for a bunch of reasons that I won't get into in this post (or perhaps ever, on this blog...) In any case, it's a relief.
More than that though, it was an amazing experience. I am an adherent to the "proof of the pudding is in the tasting" philosophy. Test things and people out for yourself, rather than just taking other people's words for it. And I got to do that at this gathering, and my experience was remarkable. The energy and clarity and vitality I felt, a few days into the gathering, was top notch powerful and transformative, and one experience near the end, was one of those rare, heart opening, tears streaming down in gratitude and love spiritual experiences that always seem to be related to
God and devotion and growing tangibly closer to God. Or more accurately, becoming aware of God's closeness and love. I can count on one hand the number of times I've had experiences like that. I can describe them all in detail, because they are indelibly etched into my heart.
So, good times. Oh, and I met some wonderful people there. I shared a room with one guy who was a long-time devotee, and who had some fascinating stories to share. Some little miraculous syncronicitys occurred with him as well, but I'm out of time. You'll just have to ask be about them in person if you want to know ;D
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