Bring it on. Nightmares into action movies. One more (extra) crazy summer.

I 100% just missed last weekend. That doesn't normally happen. It's the week before classes start. But classes have already started, in effect. I wake up, I exercise, practice my speed reading and memorization, then I get to work. I work until a different obligation pulls me away, then I work some more. By the end of the day, I'm a little out of it, from the extended focus. I still eat meals, and I take an hour or two off in the evenings to have time with Suzannah and/or friends, but if I don't have anything scheduled, then I just work some more.

I have to. There is so much to do. This is a very familiar feeling. Last summer, the summer before that. I'll get it done, but there is no time to spare. I take breaks, but that's because taking breaks and staying rested is time efficient. If I burn out I'll get behind, and start getting less efficient. I'm like a missile being engineered in a wind-tunnel, trying to eek out every last bit of speed and efficiency I can get.

In addition, there is a wedding to plan and a move to another state to make happen. Thankfully Suzannah is shouldering most of those burdens, but there are still quite a few things that I need or want to help with, for those things.

I could sit down and curl up into the fetal position, and have done so in the past, but it doesn't help, so I'll use one of my tools instead: Bring it on. Turn to the challenge, and yell, "bring it on!" and then jump into the discomfort. It transforms things, transformers the experience. A bit like how my nightmares transformed into superhero action movie dreams, when I stopped running from the monsters, and started facing them.

Part of a quote I like that seems to sum it up: Life is a game, play it. Life is a challenge, meet it. 

(and the quote ends with: Life is love, enjoy it.)

Goodbye for now, friends.

keep taking care and staying safe

Love and prayers,

-Isaac