It’s that time of the week again! That time when I write about what I’m doing during my lunch break. Hello and welcome back. I just finished a rather busy weekend. And I suppose busy week. It was an exhausting week. But then I finally got a chance to sit down and talk about all the stuff that was bothering me, with my mentor. My doubts about myself as a teacher, all the things I wished I was doing better, how exhausted I was. They listened patiently and gave their encouragement and advice and sympathetic ear. Perhaps the most encouraging thing was just how open they were to the conversation. I’m often afraid to impose on anyone except my very closest friends, when I’m feeling down, but they were really welcoming.
Then I had a spiritual course over the weekend with an enlightened master (via zoom, of course.) And, though most of the specifics weren’t that exciting or new, the transformative energy that she was dishing out was I guess pretty top notch, because I’m feeling a lot better today, despite only having about two hours of ‘weekend’ time this weekend. A lot of the stuff that was bugging me, just doesn’t have it’s teeth in me nearly as much.
I think we all need stuff like this regularly: something that recharges our battery’s. For me I think of it as recharging my spiritual batteries. But it’s an amalgam of learning new things, healing from old, being inspired, and having profound experiences of silence, peace, and such. At least, that seems to be the kind of thing that I often end up at.
A theory I have, about spiritual masters: true masters have an energy about them, that they infuse into whatever they do, to the point where they could almost just be gargling on stage and you’d come away transformed. I don’t know if it’s really that stark, but I don’t have strong beliefs one way or the other about a lot of the more esoteric stuff that she talks about. Yet, the transformation that she can catalyze is undoubtable. I sometimes think of myself as a spiritual pragmatist: if it works and works well, I don’t really care about how or why, as long as it’s all integrious.
And if I find something that works better, I’ll drop the previous thing and use the better way. I’m good at giving different things, different modalities, a fair shake. I can set aside my prejudices and practice what’s being taught long enough to discover if it works or not, and how well. There’s something to be said for sticking with one musical instrument rather than continually switching to a new one, and the same with spiritual practices, but here I’m really talking more about healing and growing modalities. And, there’s nothing wrong with trying out a bunch of musical instruments to see which you want to commit too. Also, screening your music teachers carefully.
OK, this was a longer post because my co-teacher was out for a chunk of the day, so I’d already eaten lunch with the kids by the time it was time for my break. Lucky you? I don’t know if longer means better though, in the case of these posts.
One of my friends suggested I should become a yelp for spiritual/growth practices, and that’s not a bad assessment of what I’ve done with my life, I suppose.
In any case, the year is finally coming to a close, I will get at least a few blessed weeks off, and it’s going to get more intense, as reports and parent conferences are coming up, along with other growth/spiritual stuff I’m doing.
Love, bye,
-Isaac
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