Well, I'm a week late again. I suspect it has to do with my habits. Once it's vacation time, I'm off my normal routine (one of the con's of some vacations for me) and so I forget stuff.
I flew to Fairfield with Suzannah, and it seems that it beat my body up quite a lot. The n 95 mask I wore hurt my nose like a punch to the face after a day of the painful metal band digging into the bridge of my schnoz, and by the end of the day I was curled up in bed with a splitting headache and nausea to the point where I didn't want to move or think because it took all my focus just to... be.
And now it's...two days later, and I still have a mild headache, and slept from around 3-5 when I only planned on taking a half hour nap. I feel bad for my poor body, but I'm not sure what's wrong. It doesn't feel quite like normal sickness symptoms, but I suppose it could be, which would be pretty sad itself. My vacation degraded by being sick during it.
Regardless, I'm trying to enjoy my time at least, and it has been very nice spending time with friends. Have gotten almost no work done though.
My first free day of break, (which was Monday, as I was doing classes all weekend) I sat down and seriously asked myself about the state of my work life, my purpose, what my next steps were towards having a job I love, that's dharmic, that uses my strengths and the things I love to do and my unique makeup to greatest effect to give what I'm best suited to giving, to the world. Something I can develop a sense of mastery with, get into flow with, something that gives me energy and joy rather than taking it.
I got a little bit of clarity, not a lot, but one thing that was clear was whatever I end up doing next, it's got to at least start out part time. I am hurting from the hours I'm working.
I've already written more, but it needs to be edited. I'm not sure how much of my nascent thinking about jobs should go out to the world yet. Also, I need to put out another blog post already, so I'll save it for #2
-I Out
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