Tests, determination, gratitude, process vs. goals.

Let's do a quick post for this week. This afternoon at 1pm I'm doing an interview for Antioch's Counseling program. In twenty minutes I'm meeting with my triad group, the two other people I was working with while learning about... mentoring/community building/authentic communication/nature awareness, with Jon Young and others. I loved the teachings from that multi-month, free workshop, and am continuing to keep in touch with my mini-group, and deepen my practice.

The ability to create a healthy, self-propagating group is super valuable, for whatever you want to accomplish. It's like creating a support group. That could be for exercise, spirituality, accomplishing a goal, it's very flexible. But having that social support is really useful, and being able to facilitate groups to have that, is a skill I want, both for myself, and to be able to share.

I've kinda been going through the ringer since I got back, but the depth of experience from the course is seeing me through the rough waters with a fundamental stability, which I'm really grateful for. I can step back and be grateful for the test, the challenges, as an opportunity for further growth and deepening, even in the midst of the discomfort or sadness. I suppose I can't go into specifics because it involves other people, and it's not my place to air other people's dirty laundry. Suffice it to say, I've been shaken, not stirred, but I will not be deterred, and so far have been able to maintain my dedication, surrender, and gratitude.

There are so many things to do, clean up the house, learn cooking, decide on grad school, that life is very full, but I've come to an idea... it's still cooking, so I'm not sure I can describe it well yet, but in general, the idea is, to find what I love to do (in service of finding work I love and such), it may be better to take an organic, process driven approach, rather than a "sit and think and try and figure it out and then go" approach. Still figuring out the details of how that will work, especially with all the other stuff going on, but it seems promising.

May all of you have light and love in your lives.

With blessings,

Isaac