Furiously

I somehow managed to not post last weekend and not even realize it. I thought I already had, but I have a notification on google calendar that tells me to post every week, and it wasn't checked off, so I double checked, and lo and behold, I actually had missed it entirely. Better late than never.

I am furiously beating back the seemingly endless mass of stuff that needs doing. I'm doing this while trying my best to be kind to myself, and get periods of deep rejuvenation. I'm pumped up on self-help books, so currently I'm rocking it, but that's never a sign that I won't crash right back down. However, I'm hoping that by

a) Treating myself with kindness and doing my best to make sure my rest time is actually restful.
b) Listening to my own sense of rightness, balance, and importance

I will be making those inevitable down parts less intense, and faster to recover from.

I'm also working furiously on re-training myself not to avoid unpleasant tasks. By creating the (fairly accurate) story that all the things I want are on the other side of my comfort zone, and the challenges and failures and pain are the very fuel that will lead me to my goals, I seem to be slowly changing my behavior towards discomfort. I am, as always, using a bunch of nifty tools that I've found, to help me do this. In fact, one of the books I'm enjoying using is just called "The Tools."

The other thing I'm doing is kind of short-changing everything that's non-essential. Giving it the minimum I can bear giving it, and moving on. Since I sometimes have perfectionistic tendencies, this still doesn't result in garbage. But it does help me focus more time and energy into the more important tasks.

Since blogging, though fun, is rather low priority compared to "become awesome teacher" and "graduate" I'm afraid it might get the short shrift, especially at times like this, where I don't have a specific post trying to burst out of me like some beautiful alien spawn or parasitic wasp larvae.

So... I think I'll just leave you with that image. Much love to you, dear friends, and have a good week.

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