Tuesday is the new Sunday.
Meaning my weekends are super busy so I'm going to update this blog by Tuesdays, rather than Sundays. That should make it more likely to actually happen on the date assigned, and perhaps with better quality.
I'm in an odd state these days. All is well, yet, there is still a bit of creeping doom. This is the unsettling feeling that I am accumulating more things that need doing than I am completing.
It feels kind of like a video game that's on a timer or something. I have to solve all the puzzles in the room before the timer counts down to zero. Perhaps this started off easily, with one or two puzzles. But then as I solved those, the difficulty increased. Three puzzles, four, five, six. Suddenly I was in a room with the timer at two seconds left, and realized there were things I hadn't done. I tried to move as quickly as possible, but to no avail. The timer hit zero and with a sickening electronic "bloop" I felt my failure hit me like a cold slab of beef slapped across the face of a vegetarian. Perhaps my life bar went down incrementally. Perhaps some of the pixilated villagers I was trying to save died. And then, without a pause to catch my breath, the next room appeared. Now with even more puzzles.
I'm beginning sweat and wonder what happens when my life bar reaches zero. What are the repercussions of all those lemmings or mushroom people I've been failing to save? The dark cloud of worry-doom is getting bigger and darker.
That's not a good state of mind to get anything done in. I especially hate being rushed. I find it amazing that some people thrive in that kind of environment. Low time high pressure.
But this is not very high pressure. No real villagers are going to die. No princesses devoured by giant turtles, no houses burned down. Maybe I get a late fine, or I'm not able to help to help edit a script as much as I want. Or I have to reschedule a meeting.
As I said, it's just an uncomfortable background radiation, like a dark cloud hovering in the background, making me wonder what's going to happen when I continue to inevitably not meet all the deadlines in my life.
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