Jello

My brain is so liquefied right now. It's like a big ol' tub of bland orange colored jello. Classes at Tracker School always leave me exhausted, if inspired. Add to that a normally exhausting routine, plus six hours of driving, much of which is through moderate traffic and serious city, and I'm just about ready to pass out for a few days.

Which I can't do. I ended up staying for the whole class, which ended up seeming like something I really should do, given my vision and commitments, but it's made my life harder. The small "break" I was going to get, to catch up and organize my life, is now just barely going to be enough to catch up on the classes I've missed and hang on by my fingernails.

I emphatically regret nothing. I'm doing what is important to me and living an exceptional life. Or the beginnings of one. I just have to keep reminding myself that, though I should treat all with respect and appropriate kindness, the only opinion that really matters is God's. I can't be trying to please everyone. Just being true to my own sense of what is right is difficult enough.

That said, I'm going to be running on overtime to meet all my commitments. I'll have to be relying on something bigger than myself for the energy and focus. Good.

On deck for tomorrow: Prepare and teach an online class. Plan for next week's school class. Catch up on the online class from two weeks ago so I'm ready for that night's new teaching. Several hours of processing my tasks and todo's so I'm somewhat current and can prioritize and plan appropriately (that's going to take probably another 4-6 hours so I'll be doing it throughout the first half of the week.) Meet up with a friend and get recordings of the classes I missed and start listening to them and take pictures of her notes to use for further reference.

On deck for tonight: apologize and begin rescheduling the things I missed because of the last minute schedule change. (I got a lot of them, but there were a lot + some more, and I did not get them all.) Make sure the super awesome friend with the recordings is available and around tomorrow for me to meet up with, and figure out time. Put away clean laundry so I've got a place to sleep. Have more crazy dreams. (last night I had a dream that I was a semi-omnipotent being, having a dream, deciding to give some immortal fable creatures temporary semi-omnipotence, just to see what they did with it. But then I had to explain to them why these powers came with the caveat that they not kill people. And I had to explain to these immortal beings why it was a bad thing to kill, through experiences, so they really understood it viscerally.

Teaching even in my sleep. ;-)

Good night all. I hope your days are as meaningful but not quite as full as mine.
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